Thoughts — Emotions

As a perpetually single person, everyone around me (and my spookily curated feed) has constantly told me one thing: I need to love myself first. In fact, they sometimes push it to a more brazen ‘Don't care about what others are saying, be your own person.’ (but that’s also supplemented with a quick ‘love will find you when you least expect it’. Yeah, I know it’s a paradox.) While a part of me always thought this was at least 60% BS, an instance from Bojack Horseman hit the mark dead centre. In the scene, Mr Peanutbutter is talking to his...

Think about your first relationship, the very first time you fell in love. How did it feel? For many of us, our first relationship may have started back in the fresh, first days of college (or maybe even during adolescence). The stolen glances, the secret hand-holding, maybe meeting each other during the lunch break, sometimes saving a seat for your partner, the butterflies, the joy over tiny (but thoughtful) acts, these are just some of the common memories that people may have. For many, being in love for the first time is usually associated with feelings of excitement, pleasure, elation...

Do I like reading? Better only read things that’ll help me with my work, so limit my reading to stuff that’s just related to psychology. Ironically, forcing myself to do that has now left me reading much less than I used to before. And all that ‘free time’ does not really feel like a breather anymore.

This COVID wave burst my privilege bubble. From being the “work from home kid”, who woke up 1 minute before meetings and was served lunch on my work table, I had to adapt to waking up 2 hours before work to cook some breakfast, feed our pet, heat milk and keep the trash outside … and how I wish that was the end of the loooooong to-do list. The day my mother tested positive, I knew I’d have to work and take care of her and my  family, and with no one else to help, this had to be a...